Some Poem's by Stephanie

SIN
I remember how you first touched me and how scared you made me feel.
I remember the way you looked at me and how small that made me feel.
You made me feel so dirty, so dirty I could cry.
When I told you this was wrong, all you did was lie.
You told me that it was okay, that I had nothing to fear.
"Don't be afraid," is what you whispered in my ears.
I wanted so much to stop you so that you may look and see,
That what you were doing was wrong, you were wrong, not me.
I trusted and admired you, you've taken that away.
Now I am trying to trust again,
And hoping I will one day.
What you did was wrong...as wrong as anything could be.
Physically you didn't hurt me, but emotionally I continue to bleed.
That little girl you hurt is buried so deep inside.
I have to convince her that it is okay to cry.
Crying makes her feel, feel that pain again.
That pain takes her back to the first moment of YOUR sin.
The sin was yours, not mine.
That I firmly believe.
I did nothing wrong, nothing that I can see.
The days of self blame and doubt are gone....no more guilt shall I feel.
The Sin will always be yours....now is the time for me to heal.

Stephanie Quesada

TEARDROPS/B>

The first drop is longing
longing to be loved
The second is sadness
of never feeling love
The third drop is fear
fear of the unknown
The fouth drop is pain
pain that nobody knows.

I take these teardrops, oh Lord
and cast them at your feet
In hope that someday
You will say to me:
?My child, hear are your teardrops
they are new and they are clean,>BR> I?ve given them new meaning
and taken the away the pain.

?My child, here is your first teardrop, longing for love.
I?ve replaced it with hunger for things up above
Here is your second teardrop, no more sadness is there.
I?ve replaced it with joy and happiness to bare.
Here is your third teardrop, fear of the unknown.
I?ve replaced it with courage so that you may conquer and go on.
And for that fourth teardrop, the one for all of the pain.
I sent my son Jesus and He knew your name.
On the cross as He was dieing when darkness was all around,
He saw you hurt and lonely that?s why He laid his life down.?

?He knew the hurt and lonliness that someday you would feel.
That?s why He gave His life, so that one day you would heal.
Take comfort in these teardrops, no more pain will they cause.
For these new teardrops are from Heaven
And they are the best ones of all.?

You say that you love me
You say that you love me
You say that you care.
You say that I can trust you
and that you will always be there.
You say that I am you world,
your love and your life.
You say that you will never
regret making me your wife.
If only I could believe that
you mean what you say.
If only I could believe
that you won?t leave me someday.
Everyone I?ve trusted and
everyone that I have loved,
has hurt me in a way
that I can?t seem to rise above.
I want to believe you
I want you to love.
I want you to be the one
that helps me rise above.
Rise above all the heartache,
the hurt and the pain.
Teach me to love again
and give me a new name.
Help me to see that thing you love most
is the part of me that I thought was lost.
The part of myself that I?ve never known,
that?s the part of me that needs to grow.
Give me my wings and teach me to fly
fly high in the air all across the sky.
Know that I love you and know
that no matter what.
When ever I see you look at me
I will know that it is you that I can trust.
You say that you care.
You say that I can trust you
and that you will always be there.
You say that I am you world,
your love and your life.
You say that you will never
regret making me your wife.
If only I could believe that
you mean what you say.
If only I could believe
that you won?t leave me someday.
Everyone I?ve trusted and
everyone that I have loved,
has hurt me in a way
that I can?t seem to rise above.
I want to believe you
I want you to love.
I want you to be the one
that helps me rise above.
Rise above all the heartache,
the hurt and the pain.
Teach me to love again
and give me a new name.
Help me to see that thing you love most
is the part of me that I thought was lost.
The part of myself that I?ve never known,
that?s the part of me that needs to grow.
Give me my wings and teach me to fly
fly high in the air all across the sky.
Know that I love you and know
that no matter what.
When ever I see you look at me
I will know that it is you that I can trust.

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